つもりだ => I thought I~; I believe I~; was planning to~; was intending to ~ N4
かな(あ) => I wonder; should I? N3
つもりだった => I thought I~; I believe I~; was planning to~; was intending to ~ N3
でしょう => perhaps, I assume, I believe N4
Speculation
~ものやら      => I wonder...; unsure; I don’t know ~ N1
...のだった => If only I...., then I would... (Regret) N2
Regret
~ものを      => But, Although, If only, I wish I had N1
~ても ... れない => Even if I want to... I can't... N1
Emphasize
と思う => I think N5
とか => I heard that N2
... ときく => I heard N2
Speculation
ても~れない => No matter how much I want to ..., I can't ... N3
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